hello from york!!

i wasn't going to bother updating, but i can't log in to my university email for some reason :( so i have a few minutes to kill, as that's where i have most of my addresses, etc., stored.

bad news. no more t in the park 'cause my friends, who live in bristol and birmingham, didn't buy train tickets to it yet. they checked a few days ago and they had left it for too long; they were up at 70 pounds. each way. so that wasn't going to happen!!

fortunately, i am seeing THE MANICS!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, AGAIN. at move festival in manchester. with gitfucker. i thought iw as able to stay with him all weekend but he might not let me - his room might be too small, he says. (he's moving into a dorm-style thing.) for fuck's sake, like my room at uni was huge when he came to visit me!! geezus. i'm trying not to get mad, but i don't know if i'm succeeding. i'm trying to think logically. anyway. better things to talk about!

leeds was fantastic. i met up with a super old internet friend that i hadn't talked to in about 5 years. it was cool, though. really awkward with him when we went out with lots of uncomfortable silences since we don't know each other at all, but he's a great guy. he was at the bar most of the time though, so i went off on my own to dance. it was really great music - this drum n' bass type stuff which i'm starting to love goining out and dancing to. (i know - not really 'me', but it's so much fun.) and! this guy started dancing with me. a few guys started dancing with me actually (surprisingly!), but this one guy wasn't sleezy. he asked my name and we shouted over the music a bit and just danced. and then we talked - just talked. we exchanged numbers and he actually texted me! we've been texting back and forth all day. it's nice, but i won't see him again, i don't think. he told me to come up to where he lives (same place gitfucker is from), but meh! i have my hostel in york booked. it's nice though, because that's just what i wanted - someone interested in getting to know me, and i got it. even though i'm leaving soon and won't see him again, it's nice to know that it can happen; reassuring, even.

so we moved out of uni on saturday morning. one of the my most emotional experiences ever. very sad because i won't see a lot of them again. i was counting on seeing 2 of my closest friends again at t in the park, but that's not happening and didn't hit me until friday night and i started crying and they started crying and justin was there and i don't think he'll end up coming to canada so i cried over that and he cried and it was horrible :/ i hate saying goodbye, especially when i know it might be for a lifetime. i'm sure i will come back to england some time, but i know it wont' be in the near future. i'm graduating next year and i'll need to get a proper job and save some money and ugh. who wants a proper life when they can have student one?

so i'm in york now. it's really gorgeous, but i need some food. badly. this internet cafe is expensive, so i'm going to go soon. but not yet!

i wish i was here with a friend. i want to go out clubbing! i want to dance!! i want to drink!! i was barely even drunk yesterday, you know? barely drunk and i still went and danced on my very lonesome and i had a fantastic time. one of the best nights i've had in absolutely ages. i wonder if it still would've been that great if i hadn't met that guy..i'm glad i don't have to find out.

this internet is expensive, so i'm going to go now.

xxx

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