I am achingly homesick.

I actually miss my mom like crazy and wish I was there. I keep feeling like my parents are getting older, realising the time I have left with them isn't forever like it used to be. I know it's still years and years (hopefully), but it doesn't seem like enough.

Ireland isn't as gorgeous as it's cracked out to be. Maybe it is, maybe it's the weather (constant rain and cold - worse than England and much worse than Vancouver), maybe it's my mindset... I don't know.

I'm on the Aran Islands now and the people at my hostel are very cold, but only to me. They're so friendly to everyone else who comes in, but when I enter the kitchen and say hello, they literally ignore me! What did I do!? Oh well, I'm leaving here tomorrow morning.

Galway was cool. It was on the Stray bus tour, and this group of people I was with were much, much cooler than the first. They were lots of fun and we went out both nights I was with them and had a great time. Met some Irish dudes in Galway who I exchanged number with and got nice kisses and hugs off of :) I love affection! They'll never call or text, but it was still nice.

Back to Galway tomorrow before Stray picks me up for Kilcar. I'm looking forward to meeting a new group of people - maybe it'll feel less lonely and the homesickness will ease.

It's largely that I'll only have a fucking week at home before I go back to uni to look for a house to live in. a WEEK!! After I've been away for 7 months solid. It's not enough. :/ I'll just sit at home and veg and be with my mom and my dog 24-7, I think. That's it. When I go shopping, it'll be with my mom. I might take one night to go out with F, a high school friend, but other than that, I am staying in my pyjamas, playing with the dog, watching movies, and spending time with my parents. I'm looking forward to that more than I'm looking forward to graduating, almost.

My time is running out on here. Expensive internet cafes suck.

xxx

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