i think i have an itty bitty oh so very MINOR crush on a roommate of mine.

ooops.

he's super cute: shaggy black/dark brown hair, greenish blueish eyes, tall and lanky, plays guitar, sings, works in film, super smart (reads social psych text books in his spare time!), likes some of the same music i do...

super caring, easy to talk to (talked to him utnil 4:30 at our party last night and sang along to guns n'roses with him, too), sweet, smart, asks me lots of question, but a bit shy to answer some things about himself (but not TOO shy) and.. hm. it's a bad scene.

once again, i say, ooooops.

it's just minor. it won't get in the way of anything.

minor, minor, MINOR crush.

itty bitty.

let's just make sure it stays that way.

the bad things is that i didn't even realise that i fancy him until i was talking to a friend of mine about the party, and found myself mentioning him a lot and how cute he was when he decided to sleep outside on the porch, cuddled up in a blanket he claims he's had since he was 5... and found myself smiling when he was playing and singing "high and dry" by radiohead. then i kind of paused, burrowed my eyebrows together, and admitted i had a secret.

"what is it?"

"umm..."

"you like someone!"

"yeah, maybe.."

"you like your roomate!!!!"

my silence and scrunched up nose was the resounding "yes" she needed.

the minute i said it, i realised i shouldn't have. now that i've admitted this to her, i've admitted it to myself. it's solidifed this crush, it's made it real. it's not just a feeling i think i might have; it's a definite desire. oooops.

i hope i don't start acting like an idiot around him now.

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